Reflective practice in everyday living

I am currently writing and reflecting on the "critical incident" as part of my Prof Doc. I'm surprised how problematic I'm finding this considering the three strands of my professional life require constant evaluation and reflection. As a theatre director, I started to use notebooks as part of my preparation process for every production. These can contain initial ideas, sketches, photos, articles that somehow seem relevant to the concept of the show. As a Feldenkrais teacher, part of the training consisted on making copious notes, drawings and reflections on the whole somatic process involved in using Feldenkrais as a means to explore physical and psychological habits. In teaching, I explore my own knowledge constantly and also, when planning and preparing lessons I try to find the most effective way of engaging the student. This often calls for self reflection when a session either goes unexpectedly well or fails to activate any responses. More recently, I have become more confident about asking students for feedback as learning seems to happen in the most unexpected circumstances and sometimes unbeknownst to me. I always over-prepare my sessions as I have a dread of running out of material ( a legacy from my original training at CSSD) but recently and unexpectedly I had to run a session with only two students. I quickly realised that I couldn't do some of the exercises and we burned through the rest of the material very quickly because of the small numbers. I didn't want the pair to lose out on their session and in desperation asked them to go through some of the work in minute detail. At the time, I felt I was "blagging" but afterwards both students said how much they appreciated being able to work on small aspects very closely. It was a reminder to myself that I still have a default button of over-preparation - a habit that lurks in my own psyche that is born of a lack of confidence. On reflection, I realised that although I function very independently, I do need regular feedback to adjust my negative perception of my own abilities.